christmas….

wow… not going to lie I can’t believe that it is already christmas! Well in 1.5 days

It seems like time is just flying by…

Since time is flying by deliberate is what i need to be.

lots swirling in my head today! lots of anticipation ( the good kind) and excitement for the future even though i have no idea what it will hold… but He knows.

Also currently regretting drinking an energy drink and only eating mainly cookies today.. that may have been a bad choice. lets be honest it was a HORRIBLE choice

Ok Christmas I’m ready for you! Ready to serve, ready to love, ready to give!

(oh yeah one phrase that i am kicking out of my vocabulary is : “I’m not ready”… I might not be but He is and he knows better what i need.)

Thankful… Resolves…

On my drive to Adrian for thanksgiving I  was reminded of all the things that I am thankful for!

friends                               family            church                                       work                                         roomates                                                         people i work with                       God always comes through                      new seasons                             learning…

But I was also reminded of some things that I have left at the wayside recently.. because I haven’t “had enough time” or acutally made enough time. I have to be deliberate and focused and on target. I can’t make excuses, pick up other peoples habits, be lazy, or wait until “Monday” to begin.. because it always seems like monday turns to next monday and then the next! This “season” seems to be busy and I’m expecting it to get even more busier.. (if that’s even a word).  I decided instead of waiting until New Year’s to make resolutions. I am going to have thankful resolves! Bringing change and determination while being thankful!

… yep this blog is part of the resolves

i heart habakkuk 3:17-19

yep that’s right i heart it.

So i remember last winter reading this verse and falling in love with it! memorizing it quoting it and believing it… but me and references are not as good friends as i would like to be. i always am forgetting them.

so last week at REAL church we saw the video for the new series about habakkuk and the video looked so good I went home and read habakkuk not remembering how much i loved this verse. as i got to the end of chapter 3 it smacked me in the face it hugged me and then it told me to get moving to walk, work and love… yeah love does that it comforts and it pushes you to better (so i hear- if it’s the good kind of sharpening love)

“Even though the fig trees have no blossoms, and there are no grapes on the vine; even though the olive crop fails, and the fields lie empty and barren; even though the flocks die in the fields, and the cattle barns are empty yet I will rejoice in the LORD! I will be joyful in the God of my salvation.The Sovereign LORD is my strength! He will make me as surefooted as a deer and bring me safely over the mountains.”

Sometimes I think only of what I should be or thought I would be. But the LORD is MY STRENGTH!! I can’t do it on my own. When I try i fail… I fall hard. But like it says in verse 19 he gives us feet like deer and helps us tread on our high places. I don’t really know much about deer- but i get it. No matter what I thought my life would look like at this time I must rejoice! I must thank him. If I have alot or a little, if I’m alone or with a million people.. if i live in Africa or America.. if i reach one or a million… none of it was me- and if i submit none of it would be my idea.

Best of all I will PRAISE HIM! He is the one who helps me walk when it is too difficult.. he gives me sure footing when I can’t walk on my own!!

questions?

So I’m sitting at my desk- looking out my new window. Secretly wishing i could get a suntan through the window. I wish it was possible…?

Wondering how your tastebuds change- or is it all in the brain?

Wondering why my tap water tasted funny?

Wondering who picks what’s on TV at the gym? Every morning I go in Saved by the Bell is on… oh memories.

It’s tuesday and I am ready for the week! Life is different when you change priorites and start looking out. I sat on the steps to the porch and watched the neighbor girls do some cheers for me and basically just pay attention to them. As I went inside I realized I had been out there for about an hour but they had been out there proably much longer. It was almost 9pm. Sometimes kids and adults just need attention- a thanks, a hug, just listening… so i’m making an effort to make my time more about giving other’s attention then using my time for myself. I’ve written some long overdue thank you cards and will be making some calls.

I wish change was completely permanent. But it seems for me change is something that is constant and a choice. It must keep on reproducing and being chosen it doesn’t happen without effort.

random.. spring is near facts!!

i’m very excited spring is hear for many reason.. here’s a few random ones

- cadbury creme eggs! yummy never liked them until i lived in england (u can buy them in england all year around.. )

- spring shoes.. not only sandals but cool flats that you can’t rock so well in the winter- i tried this winter and my feet were so cold so i decided to save them for spring. (also i got a new shoe organizer in my early easter basket with my cadbury eggs! thanks to the easter bunny.. who looks alot like my mom)

- running outside!

- hanging out downtown, walking- running down by the river.. i sure am going to miss spring working downtown at sbux! that was the best season!!!!

- cooking.. so i’m trying to discipline myself into lots of new things as spring comes- one of those things is cooking “real” food. yep vegetables and meat… tonight i made a spincah mushroom rollup creation and i put meatballs w/ sweet and sour sauce in the crockpot for this coming weeks meals.

- I miss my grandpa

- Excited about thought of adventures to the campground with friends! Lots of swimming, eating and SUN!! Augh love the sun! My face received it’s first sunburn on saturday.. and it’s suppost to snow tomorrow.. hum?

- I’m excited for change. It’s crazy you have this thought that God is going to change this or that but really He just wants to change you. It’s crazy what you hear when you listen..

- realized last night that I have lived half my adult life in hamtramck

Ultimately I’m thankful!!!!!!

the truth..

So i’ve realized the truth hurts less when God tells you that same thing first.. The recent series that we did at RC  called whispers has been so good. It has helped me to realize and understand God’s voice and not to push or pass it off.. but to listen.

Anyways God has been speaking to me about me.. things to change.. things to work on.. basically change- in me!

God has also been confirming these things in friendships and relationships which I’m thankful for but not always so excited about.. But I’m getting excited. Less talking about change and more change. So I’m not going to blog about the specifics but hopefully the people who are around me will be able to see what God is changing in me. Time to get to work!

“the one who calls you is faithful and He will do it.”

He will do it!

Less me- more dependance on Him!

sweet home hamtramck….

( i guess it doesn’t rhyme but oh well)

I have a praise report my dad did not listen to country music on the way down or home! Augh what  a relief we did however listen to 11 hours of Fox National News and Sports radio. So if anyones bored i have some info to share.. well actually i think in the 8 hrs that we listened to it all the info was the same.. the only differance is a new news person shares the minimal facts with you.

It was a nice trip. I got to see lots of great aunts and uncles that i haven’t seen some of them in 10 years.. Wow how time flies. They are all so kind and nice it was great to catch up.

Went to the driving range.. I didn’t do too bad once I got the hang of it but I won’t be quitting my job anytime soon Acutally I’ll prolly never go golfing but the driving range was fun. Maybe I was just bored.. hum. We did alot of resting on this trip.

I have the cutest niece and nephews- got to show off all 3 of their pics to extended family. Both my sisters Micah and Krista are great mommys and have adorable kiddies. Please pray for my one sis micah she is in the National Guard and is scheduled to go back for training this spring and to duty this summer. She will have to leave her doll of a son.. She’s a fighter though- i know she will do well.  I’m thankful for family! They help you out no matter what and you can always get a good laugh with them! I am blessed with a great family!

I mentioned in my last blog that I went down memory lane with my mom and her 80’s jewelery.. wow. Well i went down memory lane with my dad and all of our pets.. ha.. ha

-birds.. they got out of the cage and found the ceiling fan.. never had birds again

- kitten.. received a cute lil kittie from VBS when we were kids it ran into the walls up the curtains multiple times and then out the door.. never to be seen again… thanks to our childrens pastors i still don’t like cats

- dogs.. wow. we had a few

- Guinea pigs… beauty and the beast. they had so many lil guinea pigs.. we would dress them up in doll clothes and put them in our barbie jeep. they didn’t last long their cage stunk… eew

- hermit crab.. got this on vacation in FL after a while it got out of the cage and we couldn’t find it we found it about 6 months later alive in the bathroom.. hum… weird

-fish.. meijer kids day. we got 6 fish b/c friends of our were spending the night and when we woke up all but one fish was dead- thanks meijer. but our friend who was older then us told us that the one that was alive was his because it looked like his. we believed him… dumb they all looked the same. he scammed us for sure

For some reason we weren’t that great at choosing a good sensible pet for our family.. but i have alot of funny memories!

All these random stories..

I am so thankful that God has given me the ability to be involved in many different things over my life and to share in so many different experiences and people lives. These lil stories from my child hood remind me of all the awesome things that God has allowed me to be apart of.. some make sense and at times some don’t but all the same I’m thankful!

All this to say I’m glad to be home. Even though it was nice to be away for a minute I missed my friends and family here! Also read half of Pure Joy.. So good can’t wait to finish it

so its been a while…

So I’ve kinda taken a break from blogging but not really on purpose just lack of internet.. and with all the recent changes in life my cute lil macbook has been neglected. but dear blog i still love you even though i haven’t seen you.

here are a few things i’m thankful for:

- i have been blessed with a new job working for a company who trusts God and who pray.

- i love technology. so i’m blogging from the car.. yep on my way to alabama with my dad to pick up my gma and to visit some family. catching a signal from an awesome sprint wireless card- this may be the first time i’ve said sprint and awesome in the same sentence.

- Service plans! holla!! My check engine light came on but i can take it to the ford dealer and they can work on it. Yeah service plans.

- Real Church has been kicking. It has been awesome we are in a series called Whispers and God has been speaking and showing me stuff about me. Its crazy because for every message Pastor Chilly says something that I have been talking to a friend about.

- While at the Rest stop in Kentucky I saw a car from PA and wondered if they shopped at Karns.. the scary thing is that I almost asked them.. Karns is a store in Pennslyvania that my company does a rewards program for.

- Borrowed a great book for the road trip- Pure Joy by RT Kendall. So far I have read the first page and it is SPOT on!

- Went down memory lane with my mom and her jewelery.. tried on some of her 80’s earrings!

- My lil nephew Gage is almost as big as his sister Emma- They are both dolls! Cute!!!!

Most of all I’m thankful for this time of my life! Excited about what God is teaching me and ready to learn more and become better and more like him. Also I’m going to try to discipline myself to blog more. The crazy thing is I’m on the computer all day at work so generally the last thing I want to do is pick up my computer- but maybe I will blog on my break each day.. that’s an idea

Romans 5:3-5

“There’s more to come: We continue to shout our praise even when we’re hemmed in with troubles, because we know how troubles can develop passionate patience in us, and how that patience in turn forges the tempered steel of virtue, keeping us alert for whatever God will do next. In alert expectancy such as this, we’re never left feeling short-changed. Quite the contrary- we can’t round up enough container to hold everything God generously pours into our lives through the Holy Spirit.”

yeah. random..

i love subway.

i am slightly addicted to diet coke.

i have the same cd in my car for the past few months- because i only have 1 cd.

we live in a small small world.

when God speaks don’t try to figure it all out. just be obedient.

my car is a little more ghetto.

God protects and provides!

REAL Church is kicking! Salvations and new people- praise God!

I lost my voice- no idea where it went?

halla!